The last quarter of 2011 was a though one for me and my family.  I was hospitalized a day before my birthday and after several test the doctors found a lump in my kidney. I had an operation to remove the part of my kidney where the lump was located. The operation was a success. It was even more successful because after the biopsy, they found the lump was cancerous. I remember my doctor telling me before i got out of the hospital that I was very lucky because after he removed the cancerous lump, I don't need any chemotherapy or radiation treatment. I went home thanking the Lord for keeping me safe all throughout my hospitalization. After being at home for almost three weeks, complication arise... I had blood in my urine. Then it became really hard to pee. I was brought to the hospital again. I underwent several catheter insertion, ultrasounds and a procedure who's medical term i can't even pronounce. I was hospitalized for three weeks then. It was mid-November when I got home. I thought I was fine then, but two days before the new year I was taken back again to the hospital because the same thing happened again. After spending the New Year at the hospital in Lipa, I was taken to a hospital in Manila. There I underwent renal angiogram with embolization. The doctors there found out that I have several aneurism in my kidney. And there I thought that aneurism only happens in the brain and the stomach. I stayed in the hospital in Manila for another two weeks.

All throughout my hospitalization I cling to the only One who I know has been with me through every needle prick, every ultrasound, every drip of blood from my transfusion and every time I was taken to the OR...our GOD. I underwent so many procedures and test but I was not afraid...Oh don't get me wrong, there were times when I asked questions about my condition with fear behind every word. But there was never a doubt in my mind that I will get well. That our God will take care of me and will not forsake me is in my thought every minute I was in that hospital. My fear is strong but my faith is stronger. I clung to my faith with a firm grip... I did not let go. I believe in my heart that I will get well. I believe in our God who died in the cross for me.

 

I am truly grateful to our God who saved me. Now every moment of my life, I live with gratitude in my heart. My prayer now is that may I live my life in accordance to His Will...

Thus beholden heart is the title of my domain...